via Daily Prompt: Daring
Quite appropriate, don’t you think? If I’m going to try a daily post thing, might as well start with a prompt that is non-ironically appropriate. Daring then…
Daring to write consistently, even if I don’t have anything profound to say.
Daring myself to remember why I started writing in the first place.
Daring to focus on the good when it seems so hard at times.
Daring to pick up my translations of bizarre medieval poetry and -by extension-…
Daring to dust that heavy thesaurus sitting on my desk.
Daring to talk to strangers (even if I’m inwardly panicking).
Daring to dare imagine I cook again (long story…).
Daring to listen to my music out loud.
Most of all,
Daring myself to keep up my hopeful dreams and smile with each day no matter how bad.
And she doesn’t even have the “no internet” excuse! You’d think that being out of uni would allow me to post more often. Not! Sweet, sweet apathy has ensured that I am in zero mood to write (or do much of anything other than crave desserts…) As I was telling/whining to a friend a few days ago, I do not know how to function with no schedule! Give me a high panic situation and I will deliver. Give me more than three slow days in a row and you are killing me! Add to that my room being criminally cold and the heating on the house central and at the tender mercies of my landlord and I’m sure you ca imagine how well things are going.
But, you say, you’re out of uni! Shouldn’t you be working and being a serious adult and all that? I WISH! No, seriously, there’s few things I want more right now than to have to wake up with the sun and go to work. Unfortunately this will not be possible for an undetermined amount of time. Key and hated word being “undetermined”. The backchecks for my new job are taking about as long as the solar system took to form. Not only that, but the nice people in charge of the process do not feel it necessary to grace us with some sort of progress report or at least a countdown to the next phase. Meaning that I can do next to nothing, seeing as they could e-mail me tomorrow, or they could e-mail me in a month (and that’s an optimistic outlook from what I’m reading on the forums). Out of the window go therefore any and all potential temp jobs since I very much doubt anyone hires you with the adage of “may quit whenever she fancies”. So long-term projects are a no-go, short term projects are too many to pick one and I’m left kind of laying in bed, overwhelmed by everything.
And it doesn’t help that I am constantly cold. Bit hard to find motivation when you’re constantly shivering. So yeah, do excuse my absence. Believe me, it’s not cause I’m having fun….